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Your guide to help you awaken to your True Self and transcend pain & suffering when your life and world are falling apart during your spiritual awakening journey.
The Courage to Awaken community is for you if
You are feeling a sense of being lost. Your heart is in anxiety as if your world, with its known habits and conditioning, is coming to an End. You feel "out of place,” as if this world is not for you. After a spiritual awakening, this phase is called “The Dark Night of the Soul.” It’s a long, depressing, and very dark experience that can continue for days, months, or even years.
Whatever resonated with you before is no longer resonating with you. Your career, habits, relationships, inclinations, and likings all fell apart.
You are suffering through tremendous physical and emotional pain. You are confused and thinking, why is awakening so painful and not blissful?
You had a shift in consciousness, and suddenly, the person you thought you were for your whole life wasn't who you are now!
A significant reorientation occurred in your life, and you pondered,
what do I do with my life?
What's my role?
What's my relationship with my family, friends, wife, and children?You are pondering why some people achieve enduring spiritual awakening and live permanently in the present moment while others are stuck in suffering and oscillate between conscious and unconscious states of mind.
About me
In 2008, Near my 30th Birthday, I experienced some profound loss and pain in life to be drawn to the spiritual dimension. And I got awakened. Now I usually live in peace by being ONE with the present moment!
I have lived my past life as a real estate entrepreneur in Dubai, Singapore, Mumbai and Malaysia. I was born in Extreme Poverty in India. Because of my poor childhood and growing up struggling to meet even the basic necessities of life, my ego was “conditioned” to feel scarcity and fear regarding the money. Hence my ego pushed me to work hard to become “somebody” and achieve this or that.
In hindsight, I always feel blessed by those tough life conditions of my poor childhood. All were god’s grace in disguise.
In 2008, I was absolutely in a miserable state and was not sleeping well for three months or so, as my real estate company was going down due to the financial recession after years of my efforts. My mind was creating Horror stories of the destruction of my business, one after another, and I had no peace!
The Moment That Changed My Life Forever.
During that intense Suffering, I experienced my first spiritual Awakening while reading Page 53 of Eckhart Tolle's book The Power of Now in August 2008, during the financial recession in Dubai, UAE.
I still remember my thinking stopping while reading this sentence in that book: “Focus your attention on the Now and tell me what problem you have at this moment. I am not getting any answer because it is impossible to have a problem when your attention is fully in the Now.”
At first, I thought this book’s author was crazy. I had hundreds of problems in my life, and my ego believed that the worst problem is I was about to lose my business and all material possessions that I had worked so hard for years to “accumulate”. But then I reread the passage.
As I read that passage with intense attention,
My Mind Suddenly Stopped.
No Thoughts.
Just Still Silent and all thoughts Disappeared.
After that awakening experience, my business and wealth eventually got destroyed due to the financial recession, and it was indeed a learning experience.
I Lost Everything and Gained My Life
I still remember how that magical awakening experience took place.
During that awakening moment, I went into another room where my wife watched TV and invited her to dance.
My identification with my problems, with money issues broken one by one in that moment. As if all the tension strings attached to my mind, which caused me misery, are broken. And I experienced pure awareness once my awareness got released with the identification with mental forms. I felt that I was born again. Literally. I felt so light. I started to cry like a child after I stopped dancing with my wife! My wife was a bit confused about seeing me like that. She told me later that she thought I went “crazy”.
The next day, I handed my wife my Ego’s favorite car’s key and asked her to drive. Now, my wife was 100% confirmed that I went crazy. Why would I give her my favorite car to drive? Lol. On our way, I was observing trees on the roads with absolute stillness lying sideways on the side seat like a kid. I never watched nature like this as it was a “waste of time” for me in my normal state. Usually, in my normal state, I was even scared to sit in a car when my wife was driving ..lol
Now here comes my biggest fear. I still remember we use to park our car on the terrace of my office building on the thirty-fifth floor. My wife needs to drive circularly on a narrow alley of parking floors. Usually, I was scared sitting side by my wife when she was driving. But on that day, I never felt any fear. I can say that I never had a fear of death on that day. I never had a fear of losing anything on that day. The divine peace engulfed me.
When I went into my office and started speaking to my people, I felt their feelings by listening to them. As if I can sense what people are feeling. I absolutely felt ONE with them as if we are not separate. I apologize to one of my people, Natasha, with tears in my eyes for misunderstanding. During those awakening days, I never had any expectations from my employees, and I want to listen to them.
After my awakening in 2008, I realized that chasing material success is empty and meaningless. I can still function in the world, although I realized that nothing I ever achieved could possibly “add anything” to my being.
The Dark Night of the Soul
Those days were magical days. Whenever i use to interact with people i was not interacting with their past behaviour, images or memories. I was absolutely present. My ordinary consciousness soon took over, and from that moment, my awakening is intensifying slowly. After awakening, I encountered the Dark Night of the Soul. The Dark Night of the soul is a long, depressing, and very dark experience that can continue for days, months or even years.
After my initial awakening phase, the spiritual awakening was not always a joyful process for me. Often I felt confused, frustrated, angry, sad, grieving, or “out of place”. It felt like the end of my known world with my its old habits and conditioning. Whatever life I had built on a competing, achieving, and acquiring mentality was not resonating with me anymore.
Life was making no sense to me. Whatever resonated with me before awakening was not resonating with me anymore. For me, the spiritual awakening was an intense experience of personal transformation. I transformed from mind-consciousness to being-consciousness.
But despite how much suffering my dying mind’s conditioning was causing me, deep in my being, I was aware that I was not going insane. I was evolving and in the process of going towards an Enduring awakening from a non-enduring awakening.
If you’re experiencing the Dark Night of the Soul, you are feeling a sense of being lost. Your heart is in anxiety as if your world with its known habits and conditioning is coming to an End. This is because, after a spiritual awakening, your conditioned mind pattern is dying. While dying, your mind is making you feel miserable by re-identifying yourself with its old dysfunctional patterns.
After The Dark Night of The Soul, my inner being shined like a sun, and deep down, I started to feel its presence.
While a spiritual awakening is the process of rebirth of everything you are! The dark night of the soul is the process of dying of everything you are not!
Later in life, I applied the same “surrender” principles to my physical pains for lower Brain Tumor surgery, my four years of intense chronic back pain, and then recovered fully.
For the last eight years, I left my real estate business! The realization of being within me is steady and peaceful for the last four years.
Slowly, Slowly I left the path of competitiveness.
Once you are awake, Ego will try to delay it by making you extremely “fearful,” but you need courage to follow the path. You need to go inward and rest in your being. Everyday you have to come back to present moment, and out of your mind and emotions. You need to make this choice hundreds of time in a day. It will intensify your awakening and let you stay awake!
I will be glad to know and learn from your first awakening experience if you are willing to share!
You Can Contact Me:
I love hearing from people, so please email me at aby@abyvohra.com and introduce yourself.
Why? For two reasons:
We are all ONE on a Deeper Level. There are no Others. As I write about Healing Pain and Suffering During Spiritual Awakening, I love getting to know people worldwide
You are the ONE who made me realize my Deeper Purpose to Live.
I reply to every email.
Thanks
Aby Vohra
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