Why Are You Swinging Between Anxiety and Peace?
Get out from this "fluctuation" by understanding the difference between spiritual awakening and enlightenment
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Why can some people realize spiritual enlightenment and live permanently in the present moment while others are stuck in suffering, swinging between conscious and unconscious states of mind?
Why Are You Swinging Between Anxiety & Peace?
At Times, Spiritual Awakening is Painful!
Spiritual awakening is not always a joyful process. You might often feel confused, frustrated, angry, sad, grieving, or "out of place". Depression and anxiety are your constant companion. It might feel like the end of your known world. Whatever life you have built on competing, achieving, and acquiring mentality no longer resonates with you.
Life is making no sense to you. Spiritual awakening can be an intense experience of personal transformation. But despite how much suffering your dying mind conditioning may cause, you are not going insane. You are evolving!
What is the Difference Between Spiritual Awakening and Enlightenment?
There are two types of spiritual processes a person goes through. One is Spiritual Awakening, and the other is Spiritual Enlightenment
Spiritual awakening is a process that you go through for a long time, and you slowly start operating from Being Instead of your mind. Your mind slowly dissolves, and you live from a surrendered state of Being that is one with God itself. This metamorphosis is like the transmutation of a butterfly from a caterpillar.
Spiritual enlightenment is when you get liberated in one instance, maybe in a few minutes, a few hours, or a day. This is a rare event when the person is fully realized, and the whole universe reveals itself to that person. Here, your center of Life changes from Mind to Being complete. Many enlightened sages go through this one-time event while on this earth. This depends upon your karmic tendency
In a spiritual awakening, as the mind's conditioning is not completely dissolved, it pulls us in an unconscious state frequently, as if your mind is pulling you out. That's why you fluctuate between conscious and unconscious states.
Why Do We Oscillate Between Awakening and Anxiety? Let’s understand this….
People claim to have tremendous realizations about the truth but then feel as if they have forgotten it the following day, the next week, the next month, or the next year. They have lost that inner peace. Actually, nothing is wrong with you. You realize awakening, and now it’s a gradual process. You have seen the truth. In those fleeting awakening moments, you have transcended dualities such as good and evil, negative and positive, dark and light, spirituality and materialism.
You need to remember this transcending truth and feel it now. Sometimes, recalling the truth that we have experienced is the end of our personal suffering and does not always take time.
Whether you have been bestowed with Spiritual Enlightenment or Spiritual Awakening depends upon your karmic load. People who attain Spiritual Enlightenment carry a very light karmic load, even though they may have experienced extreme suffering before the Enlightenment.
One can see that their karmic inheritance, the conditioning they were dealing with, wasn't too heavy. Only a few people in a given generation may achieve Spiritual Enlightenment. They have no further process to undergo.
What Role Does Karma Play in Spiritual Growth?
It does no good to regret your karma- whether you think you're carrying a lot or not. What matters is what your actions are going to be going forward. It is what it is. Karmic load doesn't have much to do with whether we can awaken, but it may have something to do with what happens right after that awakening.
Most people who experience spiritual awakening will eventually find their unconscious states and conditioning arising again. Though awakening removes a tremendous amount of conditioning and dark states, everybody's different about how much is removed from the system. For some people, less conditioning gets removed. For others, it will be more.
Your allocated Karma (Prarabdha Karma) is the reason why awakening affects one person's conditioning one way and another person's other way. While I could get into metaphysical discussions about the underlying reasons, ultimately, the "why" isn't what truly matters.
Either way, we need to deal with what it is.
As a metaphor, we can think of the egoic or unconscious states as the Magnet. The egoic state has a magnetic force; it tends to pull us out of the awareness. This magnetic force is really what one deals with throughout the spiritual journey. That's why we oscillate between awakening and anxious states.
Though the mind's conditional pattern is dying during awakening, it makes you feel miserable by re-identifying yourself with its old dysfunctional pattern.
Awakening is breaking free of this magnetic force. But because we've awakened, it does not mean our awareness has gotten past the magnetic pull of the egoic states. If we haven't gone beyond this magnetic field, we will be pulled back toward the " me " experience and the perception of separateness. This gives rise to the "I got it, I lost it" phenomenon.
What is the "I Got it, I Lost it" Experience in Awakening? ..
As you had noticed it, before we awakened, we either believed a thought or not. It was one or the other, But a sudden shift of perspective due to awakening can make things seem very bizarre. After awakening, we can both believe and not believe a thought simultaneously or act in a way that contradicts the truths we have experienced with our own being. We feel so depressed because of this inner confusion that stems from something unknown to us.
Spiritual Awakening is Not About Feeling Bliss and Freedom From Negative States.
People also have an unconscious idea that spiritual awakening means they should feel total bliss & freedom from the negative states of mind all the time. It's a misperception. It is true that, after awakening, the outer circumstances of life and the behavior of people no longer make us suffer.
But it is also true to say that when we wake up, we begin to realize the patterns in our life that go against what we have realized in our awakening moments. Now, you can see the patterns of less optimal emotions like anger, envy, jealousy, etc. Hence after awakening, you feel more miserable, thinking that you are going backward. But it is not so and you are evolving.
Your authentic understanding that enlightenment is about more than just being happy and blissful takes the pressure off those aspects of your life that are more human and imperfect. Those areas of life which is less than optimal. As we grow more conscious, we need to deal with those areas of our lives where we've been avoiding or where we're less aware.
Be Willing to Lose Your Whole World
It can be easy to think that spiritual awakening comes through a blissful and happy experience, but this isn't the case. Some have spiritual enlightenment and don't have many karmic tendencies to work through, but it's rare. For most of us, the path to awakening is difficult. We need to be courageous enough to acknowledge this, or else we'll continue heading along the path of what feels good. This is not the true path of waking up, rather it's a path where we project an illusion of what's supposed to happen.
I am not saying that awakening has to be difficult. Even that is an illusion. Awakening itself need not be difficult. However, transitioning from spiritual awakening to spiritual enlightenment often requires us to detach all our identification with the dream state. We have to be willing to lose our whole world. After an awakening, most people see the world differently, and their old careers, relationships, purpose, or habits fall away.
Spiritual Awakening is Not About the Perfect Life, the Perfect Job, or the Perfect Mate.
Awakening calls for a transformation of both our inner and outer lives. This transformation is not about having a perfect life, perfect job, perfect mate, or the perfect marriage. It's about seeing beyond the illusions of our dream state.
Spiritual Awakening is about realizing God within ourselves by surrendering our mind to Inner Being. It’s about becoming one with God
For most people, the path of awakening has wonderful, profound moments and realizations. But you don't expect and attached to them. The authentic intention toward enlightenment is that internal prayer asking for whatever will bring us to spiritual enlightenment, no matter whether it turns out to be wonderful or terrible.
Most people spend their lives trying to avoid painful situations. Our mind always believes the best way to grow is through avoiding discomfort. A lot of people seem to think that the best moments reflect our greatest leaps forward in consciousness, but I'd say most people realize their greatest transformation during difficult times.
How Our Greatest Suffering, Which Causes Us Depression and Anxiety, Fuels Our Awakening!
Many people refuse to admit that our most significant challenges, suffering, and agony are gifts of fierce grace. If we're ready for them, they're powerful and crucial components of our awakening. We can see and receive the gifts they have to offer if we're willing to turn and face them, even though the gifts sometimes feel forced upon us. Whether it's an illness, the death of a loved one, divorce, addiction, or employment troubles, it's critical to confront our circumstances to see the inherent blessings available.
In this age, there's a trend of people wanting awakening but they don't know what it is they really want. They want their version of awakening. They want to be happy in a dream state where everything is perfect. When you let go of all the conditions—let go of how you want your own awakening to be and what you want the journey to be like—you have let go of your illusion of control. Then, you will have freedom with no boundaries.
Do you know now why you are swinging between consciousness and unconscious states? Please comment.
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So invaluable information for me!! Just what I need. Thank you soo much Aby! :-D
Inspite of my best efforts I am not able to know and understand the difference between Spiritual Enlightenment and Spiritual Awakening.
Please explain it in a more simple par way.
PN