Why You Swing Between Anxiety & Peace

Get out of this "fluctuation" by understanding the difference between spiritual awakening and enlightenment

In August 2008, my entire world collapsed.

Overnight, the person I believed myself to be disappeared due to spiritual awakening.

The career I had built no longer mattered. My ambitions faded. Relationships felt unfamiliar. Even the things I once enjoyed lost their meaning.

I kept swinging between conscious and unconscious states of mind. I wondered why, if awakening is real, I kept falling back into fear, anxiety, and unconsciousness.

Why Spiritual Awakening is Painful

Spiritual awakening is not always a joyful process. You might often feel confused, frustrated, angry, sad, grieving, or "out of place". Depression and anxiety are your constant companions.

It might feel like the end of your known world. Whatever life you have built on a competing, achieving, and acquiring mentality no longer resonates with you.

Life makes no sense to you. Spiritual awakening can be an intense experience of personal transformation. But despite how much suffering your dying mind conditioning may cause, you are not going insane. You are evolving!

In this post, we will understand

• What is the difference between spiritual awakening and enlightenment?

• Why do you oscillate between awakening and anxious states? What is the “I got it, I lost it” experience in awakening?

• What role does karma play in spiritual growth?

• Why is spiritual awakening not about feeling bliss or being free from negative states?

• Why is spiritual awakening not about the perfect life, the perfect job, or the perfect mate?

• How can our greatest suffering, which causes depression and anxiety, become the fuel for our awakening?

Let’s explore…